Discouraged.
Miserable.
Frustrated.
Empty.
And simply Unhappy.
I have been trying so hard to please and make everyone else happy that I have completely abandoned my own feelings. I have second guessed the revelations and promptings I have received because they did not quite match up with those of the ones I trust most. But I have finally made a decision. I am going to do what I feel is right and I am going to do what makes me happy.
Who is to tell me that my answer that I have been searching out for months is wrong especially when I have prayed, fasted, studied, gone to the temple, and done everything in my power to receive that answer? Who is to tell me that I am not capable of receiving personal revelation? Who is to tell me that what I am feeling isn’t real?
I know everyone is not going to agree with my decision but I am not asking for opinions or advice. For once I would like to make a decision, tell the world, and only receive hugs and the kind words, “Congrats Cami. That’s great.” Just once I would like to hear no criticism and feel some acceptance. That would definitely ease my burden and finally make me happy.
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